waves

 iii. waves

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pour another glass. 

i need to sleep.

photos of the past roll over like water.

big moon reading my mind,

climbs high to pick my pockets clean.  

when you run from yourself,

there is no good place to hide,

nowhere dry to stand.  

the tide is rising.

waves take me down.

buries me breathing.

no hands reach me now.

they knock me off my feet,

batters me down til i see clearly.

we burned love and war.

drifted too damn far from shore.

i thought that was goodbye,

you were drowning all along.  

footprints in the sand,

water mocks my fists.

i cannot wrap my arms around you.

i never could.

we pushed our boat out on the river.

never made it to the sea.

i thought we were being reckless.

you thought we were being free.

i dream we're in the ocean,

and i'm sinking as you drift away from me.

waves roll in forever.  

i ride them back to that last look,  

the drowning i mistook waving.