not cool forever 

estefaaano_writes 

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I know now,

life keeps the currents running.  

I want to listen with my whole body,

to stumble bloody-kneed,

then rise again.  

write down my thoughts with fading ink,  

because certainty is for the dead.

yesterday i blamed the world

for going numb,

claim everyone’s calcified 

into their own beds.

today, 

alive with music,  

bodies pressed,

screaming ourselves hoarse.

harsh truth of twenties;

you search for your place, 

uncertain.  

trying on different skins for size,  

chasing feelings

till curiosity curls up, 

dying slow.

then when paycheck arrives, 

you pair off,  

build a small life together

with hopes and fears.  

one day your children 

will ask the hardest questions,

tell them easy stories, 

a comfortable lie.

we can’t stay cool forever,

but we can breathe deep, 

fill our lungs with this one life.

this is no Heaven.

this is no Hell.

just this messy, 

beautiful thing called life.